shojo-gamer

Not like ice cream falling from the sky weird, more like emotionally weird. I know I'm Bipolar, but jeez my emotions are going crazy today. Started out good. I woke up with the intent of doing the shit out of the chores in this place, and I did. Took a shower and cleaned the fuck out of the bathroom, the sink, the tub, the toilet, boom. Then I checked my facbook. I have always love cameras. I've always loved documentaries and am fascinated with watching other people both in real life and on film. My favorite series' on Youtube or in Podcasts are the ones that throw you into a group of friends and you feel like your part of it, like somehow y

Some of you might know about this because I've blogged about it elsewhere (I'm only writing it here because I once again can't think of where my blog is, passwords, etc.) But my family tree is fucked. It's convoluted and twisted. Full of deaths, mental illness, suicide. (By deaths I don't just mean standard grandma died of pneumonia type deaths.) I'm not going to go through all of it, just break down what's needed to follow this story. I have an uncle who is not 'really' my uncle. My dad's mom had him from a different man, then had two kids with a second man. She died, he remarried and had a kid with another woman. That kid is my uncle, foll

So The last entry I wrote I was depressed for no reason. Now I have plenty reason but I will fight! My sister might be losing my niece and nephew, again, though this time it seems more like it might be permanent. My dad is fighting to get custody and I might have them part-time. I can't take full custody for multiple reasons, one being I can't legally have them in this apartment. I was watching videos I have of them on my ipod. If I lose them I don't know what I'll do. I might not talk to my sister for awhile, that's for sure. I'm happy my dad is fighting to get them but it also confuses me and makes me feel worse about things. When him and